Everything and more

I would give everything and a little bit more,

to feel your hands swimming through my hair

While I Submerge myself in the dream realm.

I dream of your voice and of your eyes when you looked at me. I dream with the silly little jump you did when you danced and even with that disproportionate anger that doesn't seem as important anymore.

And missing you so much, I stop and think, I won so much with you! Ah, but I also lost so much , and I continue losing with you gone.

Oh, how I miss you, my infancy stud;

how I love you, hero of my days!

You ask, How much I would give to have you close?

I would give everything, Dad;

I would give everything and a little bit more.

Fat girl

She’s zipping out of her skin to walk freely into the world she always secretly wanted, but believed she didn't deserve because the mold was too small for her and she, according to them, just has a pretty face.

     Label here label there and the “fat girl” ends up trapped in a web of barbed wire that slashes ruthlessly her body, mind, and soul. Smiling and joking is part of the facade she has built in order to protect herself, but don't be fooled by that smile, she's breaking apart.

    Truth is, her wings are somewhat broken at the time, all the looks, the hurtful names and the constant feeling of being left behind, have made a number on her mind.

    What happens with that girl that is too big to fit the little box that was put in her hands and that has tried a thousand different ways to please the popular demand?? She sometimes finds herself dragging her feet through life and other times you may find her fidgeting non-stop feeling exposed, vulnerable and scared.

     She tries to embrace her life with her two new “best friends” one that keeps her in the past with tears cascading down her face and the other, locks her in that panic room called Future. Depression and anxiety, are the time traveler intruders that hold her back and keep her from enjoying her now. They keep her timidly dreaming with finding something to fill the void, someone that will truly see her, someone that will notice that she is smart, talented, loving and BEAUTIFUL.

      She is a garden full of colors and life. A whole bunch of life has been bubbling up inside and she wants to be able to let it all pour out. She is stronger than you think, as a matter of fact, she is even stronger than she thinks; she can tear that fucking box only with the strength of the muscle inside her chest. Her heart has grown strong like a rock yet it still keeps softness inside.

     She is that fighter that would give her life for you. Stop putting her in the corner, allow her to share her Self, allow her to live her life and give her the space and love she needs and deserves.  I can assure you, that once you get to know her, you will never walk away.