Naked

Fighting my demons

Excerpt of the poem "I vow to you"

Destiny

Insecurities

Rainbow

Unknown

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Take your pain away

Borrowed love

Today carries at heart
the vivid memory of the past.
Distant story;
constant worry
that With sorrow flooded life.

Distressed welcome,
bygone thoughts
make me shiver and bring back
how important it's being apart.

In my memoir, I must share
the antiquity of the insane.
And apart this time around
we can visit what was found...

This poetic,  rough embrace
in remembrance of our space
that not long ago we shared,
Honors history of the time
And the love that we once borrowed.

Drowning

Dawn's autumnal

display of beauty

intensified the bond

with its consort, ocean.

Touring the offing as perceived

searching comfort as light dims.

Breath sails in the billow

rapidly drowning in the brine...

Swept by current,

pushed by tide

waves of impact preview.

Flux is struggling,

nothing's glowing

deep beneath

the endless sea.

Go ahead

The moment I made

the greatest decision in life

was the moment I chose

to welcome you in my arms.

It is because of you,

that I want to be better;

that I want,

to always do better.

You have helped me grow,

mature,

and overall,

feel better.

Admiring your success

will always be the best.

Please never forget,

how loving you is my pleasure

and how my life’s purpose

is making sure  you’re successful.

My fight against my mind

had always kept me in the dark;

but your presence in my life,

has helped me find light.

I want you free and strong;

I want you happy

and truly alive.

For that it’s not enough,

to simply have life…

You should never just survive.

You must spread joy,

be humble and thrive.

You must be daring,

be caring,

have fun,

and enjoy life.

You becoming my minion,

has never been my intention.

All I ever want,

Is for you to fulfill your ambition.

Guiding you and loving you

has always been my north

and be sure, my treasure

I will forever help you go forth.

Grow strong, my dearest;

stand tall, my love;

find all the beauty, my darling;

you are my gift to the world.

Go ahead, my baby

never stay in the bottom;

go ahead, Alexa;

go ahead and blossom.

Perfect imperfection

How can you be everything

and in a blink of an eye

nothing at all?

I don’t do black and white,

I dwell in the grays in between.  

I will never understand,

how you're able to erase;

for me,

it is unthinkable

to eliminate

any human being

as if there was no energy,

love or time to share.

I believe in building people

and holding their hand

when they necessitate.

To turning your back

I will never consent.

If you look hard enough,

inside them,

there's always something to love .

And when you find the good

and the beautiful within them,

make sure you express it and to be better give them strength.

Let your words become

the ground, the solid ground

they build on...

and leave everything much better

than it was before.

Beauty is all around us;

all we have to do

is give it love

to beautify it all

even more.

I refuse to regret loving

because love is air

and it keeps us moving.

So, here's my gift to you...

Your beauty lies

in the shine in your eyes,

It is deep within

your genuine smile.

It lies in the way

your hand feels

and in how it heals.

It is to admire,

how passionately you express

and your beliefs how strong you defend.

A few unpreferred things

also come to mind

like how stubborn you can be,

and how blunt you are

especially when upset;

and how you make assumptions

based on little lies you tell yourself.

There's that distance you take for days,

in order to protect yourself,

and how you get scared

and push everybody awAy.

With the good and not so good...

You are perfect imperfection.

 As I search for the impact

I might’ve had in your life

Not making you happy

saddens my heart.

 With hopes that you have found

everything that you need and want

I hereby find myself,,

sending love your way...

I vow to you

I wish I would have met you sooner

so I would have under my belt

many many years of happiness…

I want to count more looks,

more hugs,

longer conversations,

more mornings,

way more nights

and much much longer kisses...

I want to hold you tighter,

help you better,

feel you closer

and love you stronger

every day of our lives.  

I vow today to take on and love,

all of you...

Your fears,

your dreams,

your hopes,

your everything...

Because each one of those

are what made you

so astonishingly beautiful in my eyes.

I promise to celebrate each day,

all  the greatness that surrounds us

but I will also do my best

to learn from every little darkness too…

 I vow to get better every day

because you deserve the very best.

I can’t promise perfection

but I can assure you that my current

will always be chasing that horizon.  

I once heard that Utopia is constant walk,

that it is constant change!  

In my walk toward reaching utopia,

You are definitely

many huge steps in the right direction!

Everything we have had up to now has been amazing

but today

I can confidently say

that all those years are nothing

compared to the countless exquisite ones

that we will share.

As Beau Taplin said:

Sometimes, home has a heartbeat...

You are my home,

my sun,

my queen,

my everything…

today, tomorrow and always.

I am forever yours!

Urge to swim

My heart aches,

my body longs for yours

and my souls cries your goodbye...

Confusion and sadness flood my being...

Uncertain of what it should or shouldn't be.  

North and south have merged

and the compass is found crazy.

Not clear of what I should think or feel,

Not sure I'm able to breathe!   

I gasp for air with hopes of clarity,

hopes of unity,

hoping for opportunity…

A chance not to judge you or be judged,

a chance to be understood and to understand,

to listen and to be heard,

a chance to love you

just the way you want and deserve...

Failed you miserably,

like all the others.

Hoping to be different

I became the same...

You are the ocean

and I love your waves,

but my urge to swim

made me forget

that fighting against the current

Makes time, love and life a waste.