Apology

Having relinquished

my ability to think,

I faced early this morning  

that I had given in to fear.  

Frustration, embarrassment and guilt

trapped me in a place

where I swear,

I do not wish to be.

And I submerged myself in feelings

I’ve worked hard to delete.

I have as my north,

bringing you joy.

Helping you see beauty,

excitement and love.

But as I dived into the deep,  

behind me,

I left them all.

For that, I am truly sorry

I didn’t feel like myself,

I send you sincere apology

I should have done my best.